At this time almost a week ago, I couldn’t see the computer screen. My left eye was swollen shut and was too painful to touch much less open. Sad thing is, I woke up this way. No rhyme or reason to it. I hadn’t done anything differently or unusual the night before. I haven’t tried any new soaps, lotions, face creams or detergents. There was no logical explanation for this sudden onset of swelling and pain. I went to my primary care doctor, and she suggested that it was an infection of some type. She prescribed antibiotics and sent me home. As the afternoon progressed, even with medication, the pain and swelling did too. I consulted via text with an optometrist who suggested that it was actually an allergy and prescribed a steroid in addition to the antibiotics.
Throughout the week, I was taking the two prescribed medications plus Benadryl and my two blood pressure medications. I was a medical mystery! Based on this experience, I’ve come to two conclusions: adulting sucks AND getting old sucks, too! Between co-pays and prescriptions, not being able to see clearly, and still being on “mommy duty”, this was the perfect storm for all the things they don’t teach you about your future adult days.
The whole eye situation really took me by surprise. It had me out in these streets looking like Forrest Whitaker’s sister or something! But seriously, there is something about having to depend on other people to do for you what you would normally be able to do for yourself. While this can be a challenge for some, it can be almost debilitating for others. Being vulnerable and asking for help is one of those things that I’ve had to practice. It just doesn’t come easy for me, but then I was reminded of a quote by Helen Keller:
The only thing worse than being blind is having sight with no vision.”
While I’ve been struggling with physically being able to see, I am grateful that my vision hasn’t wavered. Certainly, it was frustrating, but it also helped to remind me of a few things.
- REST is so important for your body. Take it before you are forced to take it.
- God made doctors and medicine, and I am grateful that I have access to them both.
- You might be able to see the big picture through one eye, but you need both eyes to see the details.
- Having a setback is temporary, but you need that perspective in order to move forward.
I don’t wish this experience on anyone. However, I do wish that we all have moments where we are forced to look at life through a different perspective. But isn’t that just how life is – sometimes the experience we don’t want (or feel like we need) is the what we have to have in order to get to the experience we want (or feel like we deserve). So ask yourself this question, are you ready to experience all that life has to offer?